A FORMER footballer has revealed a phone call to Clarke Carlisle stopped him killing himself. Cedric Anselin, who lists Norwich and Bordeaux among his former clubs, was prevented from taking his own life in 2012 by his wife.
Former Norwich footballer Cedric Anselin has revealed a call to Clarke Carlisle prevented him from committing suicide
But last year, while all alone, he decided to follow through with what he had planned to do four years earlier. In an emotional interview with The Guardian, the 40-year-old said: ““I was going to hang myself. In a way, it felt like I was going into a football game, in terms of the focus I had to get the job done.
“Somehow, the light that came from my phone in the loft just forced me to focus on contacting someone for help. “In a split second, I realised I needed to speak to someone, anyone. Thank God I thought of Clarke Carlisle, a former player who I knew had gone through mental health difficulties.
“Immediately he told me: ‘You’re not staying alone tonight and you need to stay with someone close and go to the doctor tomorrow first thing.’”
Carlisle, who has suffered for many years with depression, has spoken out to encourage more sportsmen and women to not be afraid to seek help for mental health problems. And thankfully his words had that guiding influence that helped Anselin speak to a doctor and then checking into a psychiatric hospital for a month.
He added: “For 14 long years I had been having issues but I never ever wanted to label it. “Once I was diagnosed with severe depression, everything was so crystal clear. “After I came out of hospital, my son said to me: ‘You’re not going to die on me, are you Papa?’ I said: ‘I will be with you for the rest of your life.’”
Injuries put paid to Cedric Anselin’s time at Norwich, and he failed to ever reach his potential
After appearing alongside Zinedine Zidane for Bordeaux in the 1996 Uefa Cup final, Anselin’s travels took him to Norfolk outfit Norwich, first on loan and then permanently. He met his wife there and began to settle into life in his new home, but things soon turned sour.
His three years at the club were blighted by injury, and he was released when he was in his mid-20s. Spells playing for Ross County in Scotland and then in Bolivia left him realising he had “nothing left” and he returned back to the UK.
But the glow of seeing Clarke Carlisle’s contact details on his phone proved to be the guiding light, and it has helped transform his life. Anselin is back in football, player-manager for Sheringham FC in the Anglian Combination League Division One.
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